With each step, our journey seems to become more intense. Tonight while on the way home from classes and shopping, Jason and I had a heart-to-heart about the reality of this journey! I asked my husband if he was apprehensive about anything that he has been learning about. His response was yes. I asked him if he thought it was weird that I wasn’t apprehensive. He replied with a yes again. It bothered me to some extent that I was not having the same reaction, but then he said that his only thoughts were that it was because of my education and work with children. I mostly agreed, but found myself a bit bothered by the fact that I have little apprehension.
I feel that unlike Jason, I have had more time to read, research and delve into the world of foster care and adoption. I have over the years as an educator established limits and preferences as to what I feel I can handle. Having had foster children in my classroom over the years has allowed me to see things from a different perspective as well. The other side of feeling the way I do goes back to my faith. Knowing and believing we are in the will of God has given me an amazing peace about this journey. That is not to say that I think this will be a fairytale and everything will be simply perfect, it is to say that I know that I serve a God that is bigger than anything we could encounter.
In our classes today we were asked a question. “What kind of fairytale do you want?” In my mind I had constructed what I envisioned to be the “perfect” child, knowing full well that there is no such thing in this life. Our instructor answered the question with a simple statement. “A fairytale that involves difficulty” It makes sense, as we are attempting to heal the hurts that this child brings to the table. There will be difficulty, struggles, successes and triumphs.
In our classes today we also had an amazing opportunity to meet a young woman that was adopted from Columbia. Although I am pretty sure she does not realize it quite yet, God has blessed her with an amazingly beautiful testimony. Her insight and wisdom is something that I will carry with me on this journey! Jason and I would also love for her to be a part of some of the amazing things our church is doing in the area of foster care and adoption.
All of this takes me to a place where once again I stand in awe of God. He, in His perfect timing has placed some amazing people on our path. He has given us hope, a future and peace about our journey and our reality has become our fairytale! I have never been more thankful for a peace that truly surpasses all understanding, and for that… I am humbled and blessed!
Philippians 4:7 – And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.